Blessing of Stillness #4
Stillness In the Midst of Chaotic Emptiness
Beloved, I call your spirit to attention, whether well-formed or formless, whole or in pieces, in the name of Yeshua of Nazareth.
Listen to the word of G-d for you today:
“The earth was without form and void, and darkness was on the face of the deep. And the Spirit of G-d was hovering over the face of the waters.”
Genesis 1:2
Spirit, there was a moment in the place of this chaotic emptiness, before the earth was defined, formed and filled, when the Spirit of G-d hovered over the face of the dark waters in silence. In His heart, there was a calm stillness that flowed against the chaos of the creation as it currently stood.
This stillness prepared the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit to begin the process of creating the world that followed. This enabled Them to each step into various roles that forced them to interact with chaos.
G-d stepped into the midst of the chaos, and brought with Him a stillness that the outer darkness could not penetrate.
Spirit, in your chaos and fractures, there is a special moment of stillness that is available to you. In that moment, you can latch onto the fact that the Holy Spirit is hovering in your midst, and before he even makes the first change, before He integrates you, and before He makes your brokenness whole, He finds you incredibly valuable, precious, lovely, and above all, His.
His desire is to just be with you, to grow your awareness of his presence, and to grow your desire to just dwell in His presence BEFORE He begins the process of moving you out of the divided chaos.
He will not despise your love, though you think it is weak
and immature…
and broken…
and shattered.
He drinks in every drop of affection you give Him. He loves you the same now, as He loved you when He knit you together in the dark of the womb. He loves you before
He repairs you. He loves you when you do not have it together.
With tender affection.
So, I bless you, spirit, with the grace to love Him.
I bless you with the revelation that, when you feel weak or feel your love is weak, that He sees your love, weak though it may be, as EFFECTIVE ENOUGH TO MOVE HIS HEART DEEPLY!
I bless you with the revelation that He will not resist, reject, despise, or deny a broken heart.
I bless you with the tenacity to keep coming back to Him in your weakness and brokenness.
I bless you with a heart that, though broken, is awakened to His love.
You are as beautiful as Tirzah and as lovely as Jerusalem, O spirit, and as awesome as an army with banners. Your eyes, and the data-filled light that emanates from them, those eyes that are filled with hurt and pain, the slightest glance of affection flowing from those eyes undoes the heart of my King, and they move Him to act on your behalf.
I bless you with the still place necessary to receive that knowledge and necessary for that knowledge to settle into you, in the midst of Chaos.
I bless you with the revelation that it is the Ruach ha-Kodesh, the Holy Spirit, who creates that still place in you.
I bless you with the heart and the fight to keep going and returning to that still place, where you do not have to DO, but you merely need to BE, in His presence.
I bless you in the midst of formless emptiness and outer darkness with that shalom, in the name of Yeshua.